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I wonder where we’ll be when all of this ends in four years and new beginnings.
I wonder where we’ll be when all of this ends in four years and new beginnings.
There is something so absolutely, beautifully normal about them, around me. If only there was more time. I could see myself here. And oh. If i could… what fantasy.
Oh and it surrounds me. Captivating, all. Around me, it feels like home. There is longing. There is more. I can be here, i can imagine. Seek the entrance stone. The metaphor, and more.
There couldn’t have been any better way for me to find out. thank you, love.
let the hard part come when it comes, now just pure bliss.
Three hours, straight, engaged. blissful, beautiful tale. the mind wanders. a distant room, an entrance stone.
the pure present is an ungraspable advance of the past devouring the future. In truth, all sensation is already memory.
and more. oh god. a little more than I can handle. An evening jog to blow off some steam. everything is a metaphor. I can’t keep my fingers straight. I feel alive.
I should’ve done this more often.
Siguro nga ay totoo, hindi ko pa alam ang tunay na pag-asa.
to regret would be regretful, how beautiful it could be to say. except, I know that I regret everything. Who I am, what I could have been. my life is perfect. I know not of suffering, so I chose, I choose my perfect life.
If I were to choose my last words, it would be that my life was perfect… too perfect for me to live.
How does it feel to not have made a dent, so close to the end, your greatest fears affirmed, looking back, saying “fuck it”, listening to the echoes of in your empty insignificance?
You really are always there, always perfect. Lovely as that first day you had me. Drawn, towards the restlessness I see. esle where, everywhere else taken for granted. how many times I’ve failed. yet you, always there, still. And I imagine it hurts. I’ve hurt you. though I never mean to. I am really sorry.
I’m so sorry. I truly am.
So much pent up anger, the overwhelming weight of disappointment when this world is coming to a close, and I lay here, just waiting.
